Rant

Things I love: Gaga, my car, my friends, my hair, and my bed. These really are the only things I love, so if you try fucking with anyone of them I will hate you. Especially when it comes to my car: If we are driving and you try to put on your music I will rip your head off. I have many playlist that are made for any occasion so if you try to switch off Gaga to put on Justin Bieber or any stupid dubstep I will slap your hand away, I don’t care how much you like me, I don’t need your affection, I’m fine on my own, so don’t try to guilt me into letting you disrupt my happiness by saying things like “Well I would let you play your music in my car”. I find it really funny that this kid is still trying to win my affection for him, it’s like he’s completely unaware that I have acknowledged the fact that he likes me. I use to feel sympathy for him because I know exactly how he feels, but I don’t anymore because he won’t let things be. I would never fall in love with some who pressure me into loving them. He’s a nice friend and all but I could never be in a relationship with him. He tries to be like this night in shinning armor by buying things, trying to give me driving advice, trying to make me ride in his car, ect ect. The thing is I don’t need saving. I’m not some helpless girl who needs a guy to feel better about myself. I like to be the one to take people in rides in my car, I’m use to paying for things, ect ect. Plus he’s kinda like a old man in the fact that he tells the same stories over and over, even when I say “Oh yeah you told me this before” he still continues on. All I want to do when I go for a drive with someone is just relax and listen to music, he talks way to much. I talk a lot to but I don’t tell stories, when I talk to someone I have a conversation with them.

Mother Fucker

I came to Starbucks to get some peace and quiet so I could work on my fucking paper about AIDS that’s due tomorrow. When I walked in it was all nice and quiet, only a few people (all working quietly), and then all these mother fucking scene kids [who are 12 (I can tell because of the have a parent with them)] just burst in obnoxiously. THEN there are some normal fuckers that come on who are just as loud. Oh wait more people! great a fucking family comes in and half of them are complaining how they want McDonald’s and they’re being loud as fuck also. And now I have a couple next to me making out.  

“Just laugh it off”

Well guess what I’ve been “laughing it off” for the past 6 years and I still feel like shit. People tell you that when people make fun you just ignore in and laugh it off, they do that just so they can make you feel bad. The truth is even when you do ignore it and laugh it off people continue to make fun of you because they think “oh she’s laughing its cool, I can make fun of her.” In this case you become the punching bag.

But when you say “hey knock it off” people think your overly sensitive and don’t want to be around you.

So either way its gonna hurt and either way your not gonna have real friends. 

My only positive advice is to just get though it and wait to move away.

I never make a New Years resolution

First off I don’t feel like I have anything to change at the moment. Secondly, I don’t think you should make a goal to yourself all because of a new year. I feel like if you’re gonna make a goal it should be because you really feel like you need to change, if you make a goal then you’re more likely to fulfill it. Thirdly, no one ever keeps their new years resolution. Its basically saying “hey its a new year, everybody is saying what they want to do/be so I’ll say the next mediocre thing that comes to my mind and only stick to it for the 3 days!” I’ll make a goal for myself when I’m good and ready!